Plans like, having BGR at the moment? yeah.
Also when we choose to drop out of school as well.
& also at times when we choose to place our friends/studies before serving you.
I guess we're sabotaging God's great plan for us.
God, in order for me, to be able to sabotage. Let me hear you voice. God, im abit reluctant to go for band today :/ and, y'know seriously. i dont know why. im just lazee. & :/ sian. Ya :/ could i quit band ? :( allow me to live accd to your plan ): May i pray for new growth and new challenges, this week GOD ): & its my life i wanna submit. give up for you God. I wanna have more breakthroughs. More than just giving up my feelings, my crush for you GOd. my all, take all.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Day 7: LIST
Deuteronomy 30: 20a
I dread having listening comprehension during secondary school days. I have never failed, but neither do I enjoy listening much either. Why?
Because I believe all humans are easily distracted by nature. We all know we don’t just listen during listening comprehension. We look at the classmates around us and do stupid faces at them. We look at the clock and think how long more can it take. We think about what we want to eat during recess time, whether to eat tom-yam or nasi lemak. We look at the teacher and wonder why don’t they need to take such lame test with us. And the next thing we know, we scribble down our As, Bs, Cs and Ds and, it’s done!
No wonder God wants us to listen to Him. More than listening, He wants us to listen intently and be very sensitive to His voice because He knows we are easily distracted. Sometimes, I really think that we are all way too talkative and busy for unnecessary stuff, that it takes so much for us to shut up and listen.
Our God does not just ”collect” prayers. As much as we yearn for Him to listen to us, He yearns to be heard as well.
It takes a quiet & willing heart to listen. Try putting aside everything for an hour or two, and try listening out for that familiar voice. Don’t doze off!
God yearns us to listen to him. But God, exactly how is listening to your voice? it comes naturally? but what if im unable to hear? God, teach me. What exactly is it like, to listen? to hear? to spend time w/you. Goddddddddddddddddddd. isit, just by coming to you and talk about our problems? or what? or isit, for you God to speak into our lives? God, show me.
How is it like, to speak to hear from you. I want to be still wherever i may be. so that i could always be sensitive to your word God :) im going on a trip from wed - fri. & allow my hearts to be open. (: & have a great time with you as well in msia :) I wanna make use of every quiet night. to seek you, to speak to you God, God may you continue to work in MY LIFE. i yearn to see you move. lord, i want to desire, more of problems, i want to love my sheep. show me lord. Show me. BE obvious God, i yearn to hear. to see you move GOD.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Day 6 : Grattitude
Philippians 4:4-7
Many times, it is easy to grumble and complain about the things we don’t have.
Being a very unsatisfied person, with what I have or who I am, I would often overlook the Grace, which had bestowed all things, blessings and rewards, upon me. I would think, “If I had a little more, I should be very satisfied.”
The very truth is this. If you are not content with what you have, you would not be satisfied even if they were doubled.
How many times do we miss God’s blessings because they are not wrapped as we expected? The darkness around us in our lives usually distort our sight, making us hard to see, hence appreciate, what God has given to us.
Gratitude as a discipline involves a conscious choice. I can choose to be grateful even when my emotions and feelings are still steeped in hurt and resentment. It is amazing how many occasions present themselves in which I can choose gratitude instead of a complaint. I can choose to grateful when I am criticized, even when my heart still responds in bitterness. I can choose to speak about goodness and beauty, even when my inner eye still looks for someone to accuse or something to call ugly.
The failure to return thanks for definite blessings received is a manifestation of ingratitude. Ingratitude that grieves Jesus Christ.
It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes Joy.
Are we grateful to God, for all the things that happened, and didn’t happened in our lives? A heart filled with gratitude s a heart that values Jesus. If we don’t thank God for what He gave us, and keep thinking that we deserve more or better, then we are not valuing Jesus at all.
Jesus Christ is not valued at all, until He is valued above all.
Amen, Jesus values more than anything in this world! sometimes, i do grumble. things that i am lacking, things that i like, i do grumble if i dont get things i like. sometimes, i really wished to be contented with what i have! cause ): i do have alot of things, i do have alot but dont always use them. Or sometimes i just use them once and chuck them back into somewhere when 100 years later then i found it back. God, times when my sheep rebel against me, times when my sheep gives me cold shoulder, i want to still honour you, i want to still go through this rough patch w/you. I want to give thanks even in such situation God! And times when all went wrong, all seem wrong, i wanna give thanks! situation DOSENT determine my faith in you, situations does not determine my rate/level of gratitude! (amen!) yes God! I want to have this heart of gratitude, not having a heart that has this innerself that is grumbling/dissatisfied. I dont want to be easily dissatisfied! i want to be contented and always always lift up to my best! i want to have a hungry spirit, a healthy spirit, to be discontented w/more of your presence! not contented
w/more of your power! because i want more! GOD :) may you bless me w/tests,trails and challenges, test me in my heart of grattitude for you! test me :) so that i may grow! i also want to develop a 'thank-God' behaviour! so that, when i say thank God, i can also mean them in my heart, but first and foremost, God, be first in my life, be first in my life! so that, everything that surrounds is from you! i give them all back to you lord! thank you, for everything that has been blesssed :)
Many times, it is easy to grumble and complain about the things we don’t have.
Being a very unsatisfied person, with what I have or who I am, I would often overlook the Grace, which had bestowed all things, blessings and rewards, upon me. I would think, “If I had a little more, I should be very satisfied.”
The very truth is this. If you are not content with what you have, you would not be satisfied even if they were doubled.
How many times do we miss God’s blessings because they are not wrapped as we expected? The darkness around us in our lives usually distort our sight, making us hard to see, hence appreciate, what God has given to us.
Gratitude as a discipline involves a conscious choice. I can choose to be grateful even when my emotions and feelings are still steeped in hurt and resentment. It is amazing how many occasions present themselves in which I can choose gratitude instead of a complaint. I can choose to grateful when I am criticized, even when my heart still responds in bitterness. I can choose to speak about goodness and beauty, even when my inner eye still looks for someone to accuse or something to call ugly.
The failure to return thanks for definite blessings received is a manifestation of ingratitude. Ingratitude that grieves Jesus Christ.
It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes Joy.
Are we grateful to God, for all the things that happened, and didn’t happened in our lives? A heart filled with gratitude s a heart that values Jesus. If we don’t thank God for what He gave us, and keep thinking that we deserve more or better, then we are not valuing Jesus at all.
Jesus Christ is not valued at all, until He is valued above all.
Amen, Jesus values more than anything in this world! sometimes, i do grumble. things that i am lacking, things that i like, i do grumble if i dont get things i like. sometimes, i really wished to be contented with what i have! cause ): i do have alot of things, i do have alot but dont always use them. Or sometimes i just use them once and chuck them back into somewhere when 100 years later then i found it back. God, times when my sheep rebel against me, times when my sheep gives me cold shoulder, i want to still honour you, i want to still go through this rough patch w/you. I want to give thanks even in such situation God! And times when all went wrong, all seem wrong, i wanna give thanks! situation DOSENT determine my faith in you, situations does not determine my rate/level of gratitude! (amen!) yes God! I want to have this heart of gratitude, not having a heart that has this innerself that is grumbling/dissatisfied. I dont want to be easily dissatisfied! i want to be contented and always always lift up to my best! i want to have a hungry spirit, a healthy spirit, to be discontented w/more of your presence! not contented
w/more of your power! because i want more! GOD :) may you bless me w/tests,trails and challenges, test me in my heart of grattitude for you! test me :) so that i may grow! i also want to develop a 'thank-God' behaviour! so that, when i say thank God, i can also mean them in my heart, but first and foremost, God, be first in my life, be first in my life! so that, everything that surrounds is from you! i give them all back to you lord! thank you, for everything that has been blesssed :)
Day 5 : leftovers
Ever wondered how is it like to live a God-driven, God-motivated, God-guided life? I often have these kind of thoughts. I imagine being able to hear the Holy Spirit’s guidance throughout the day, being able to speak to people knowing that God is there leading me in my speech and actions.
Yes, I had days like that. But well, not everyday of course. Many a times I choose to give God the last 10 minutes of the day, where the idea of meeting the bed is more appealing than to meet Jesus. And the story normally ends with me meeting Jesus in my dreams. No revelation, no conversion, no intention to change the way I live either. I mean, my entire day has been “for God”, so 10 minutes is more than enough to appease God. And we think that by this so called sacrifice we would be able to put a smile on God’s face.
Oh, how distorted a human’s understanding could be. Why, would God need our leftovers? Those 10 minutes we are so proud of, sadly, doesn’t really please God. The creator of heaven and earth, magnificent sunsets, majestic mountains and the amazing hues that shade the sky. And yet, are we showing Him that He’s not worth our time, and our 10 minutes is the best we could do to glorify God?
Yes, God, i admit i have been leaving leftovers for you. And also, just leaving 10mins to just pray to you for you to supplicate MY needs. asking more of you only. God, i understand from a human dimension that, being a leftover to others isnt a pleasant thing. Father, 10 mins isnt enough. i know it. but all these while that i've been short changing you, you're still faithful in keeping your promise, that you'll be there whenever i call on to you. you're still faithful that, whoever that does things through you,all things are impossible. thanks so so much for being such a barrier for me to lean on. God, i wanna run towards you. :) keep running, running. Lord, thanks for being so fatihful all these while. May you bless me with challenges ahead, so that i can grow, and lord, prepare me for camp. i wanna recieve the best out of it, and take away something. So that i could really be a changed person. Lord! let me step in and out of prolouge CHANGED :) for God i know you will meet me at the level of my expectations. SO i wanna expect greater and more of you IN MY LIFE :) & God, sorry. for being such a spoilt brat, being so.. demanding at times. keep demanding more from my parents. ): im sorry. i want to change. i dont wanna keep.......................... being sucha bad child eh ): cuz, i know you have your way to discipline me. your plans for me. And lord, you're just so good at disciplining me. because i never fail to go back to you at the end of the day! haha, awesome man. Lord. let me go back! to you! ;) i want to be wherever i am with you :) may you b with me too leh! :D
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