Ever wondered how is it like to live a God-driven, God-motivated, God-guided life? I often have these kind of thoughts. I imagine being able to hear the Holy Spirit’s guidance throughout the day, being able to speak to people knowing that God is there leading me in my speech and actions.
Yes, I had days like that. But well, not everyday of course. Many a times I choose to give God the last 10 minutes of the day, where the idea of meeting the bed is more appealing than to meet Jesus. And the story normally ends with me meeting Jesus in my dreams. No revelation, no conversion, no intention to change the way I live either. I mean, my entire day has been “for God”, so 10 minutes is more than enough to appease God. And we think that by this so called sacrifice we would be able to put a smile on God’s face.
Oh, how distorted a human’s understanding could be. Why, would God need our leftovers? Those 10 minutes we are so proud of, sadly, doesn’t really please God. The creator of heaven and earth, magnificent sunsets, majestic mountains and the amazing hues that shade the sky. And yet, are we showing Him that He’s not worth our time, and our 10 minutes is the best we could do to glorify God?
Yes, God, i admit i have been leaving leftovers for you. And also, just leaving 10mins to just pray to you for you to supplicate MY needs. asking more of you only. God, i understand from a human dimension that, being a leftover to others isnt a pleasant thing. Father, 10 mins isnt enough. i know it. but all these while that i've been short changing you, you're still faithful in keeping your promise, that you'll be there whenever i call on to you. you're still faithful that, whoever that does things through you,all things are impossible. thanks so so much for being such a barrier for me to lean on. God, i wanna run towards you. :) keep running, running. Lord, thanks for being so fatihful all these while. May you bless me with challenges ahead, so that i can grow, and lord, prepare me for camp. i wanna recieve the best out of it, and take away something. So that i could really be a changed person. Lord! let me step in and out of prolouge CHANGED :) for God i know you will meet me at the level of my expectations. SO i wanna expect greater and more of you IN MY LIFE :) & God, sorry. for being such a spoilt brat, being so.. demanding at times. keep demanding more from my parents. ): im sorry. i want to change. i dont wanna keep.......................... being sucha bad child eh ): cuz, i know you have your way to discipline me. your plans for me. And lord, you're just so good at disciplining me. because i never fail to go back to you at the end of the day! haha, awesome man. Lord. let me go back! to you! ;) i want to be wherever i am with you :) may you b with me too leh! :D
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